Those are the incredibly brave words of Katie, a 29-year-old mum-of-one on the reality of post-natal depression (PND).
With the exception of my pregnancy after multiple miscarriage story I donβt often touch on really serious subjects on the blog because I prefer to entertain and try and put a light-hearted spin on the unpalatable sides of parenting.
But when Katie got in touch to see if Iβd be willing to share her story on being dealt what she refers to as βthe dark handβ of post-natal depression, I couldnβt not.
Katie doesnβt blog herself (although I think she should – what you’re about to read is powerful stuff) and doesnβt have a business or website to plug, she just wants to share her story to help anyone else who finds themselfΒ in the same boat.
Hereβs her story.
βI still donβt love my daughterβ
βMy daughter has just turned two-years-old. She walks, talks and makes me laugh, a lot. But I still donβt love her. Iβm not ashamed to say that, now.
I was 26 and recently married when I got pregnant and I LOVED it. My pregnancy couldnβt have gone better, and my daughter was born fit and healthy. But life as a new mum was hideous.
More than baby blues
After a few weeks I started to struggle. Iβd been having flashbacks from the birth and issues with recovery down below, and as the weeks went on I became very disconnected and lost interest. It was put down to baby blues and I was told it would pass.
The longer it went on, the more isolated I felt. It was all about the baby and everyone just looked straight through me, so I bottled up how I was really feeling and hoped it would go away.
Days, weeks, months went on and I kept pretending everything was ok. I avoided questions I didnβt want to answer through fear of being marched down to social services.
βArenβt they just gorgeous at this ageβ¦β No, sheβs ugly, I hate looking at her and I wish sheβd never come into my life.
βItβs exhausting but that love for them just keeps us going doesnβt itβ¦β I donβt love her. I feel like sheβs an imposter and my real baby was taken from me at birth.
I felt like I was living a double life – my fake public one where motherhood was just perfect, and the real one that was suffocating me. After six months of thinking I was keeping it together, I started to unravel. I became confused and couldnβt tell what was real anymore, but I didnβt tell anyone.
The realisation
One morning, I googled ‘when did you fall in love with your baby?’ It was in the hope that someone, somewhere, like me couldnβt look their baby in the eye. I was faced with dozens of forum discussions and they all pointed to post natal depression.
It took me two more months to admit it to myself. I had got to such an extreme point of denial that I was actually giving advice to new mum friends about going to the GP if baby blues didnβt lift. I seemed to be getting the words out to others that I desperately wanted someone to say to me.
Lost the plot
Reality started blurring with obsessive thoughts. Dark thoughts that even now I find hard to put into words. When nobody was around I would smack my head over and over in an attempt to get rid of them, but theyβd come back darker and more frightening each time. I knew something was seriously wrong but I was on self-destruct mode.
One day in particular Iβd convinced myself that my husband was having an affair. I was driving home and getting worked up that I was a failure when I had the most overwhelming urge to put my foot down on the accelerator and drive into the back of a lorry. I had the baby in the car. Thankfully something, whatever it was, kicked in and stopped me.
Finding the words
Enough was enough. I had spiraled out of control and it was terrifying. I didnβt recognise myself and I was being totally irrational, unpredictable and a danger to the baby and myself. Shit had got real and I needed to face up to it and get help.
That evening I made the best decision of my life. The first words were the hardest to get out, but before I knew it the floodgates opened and Iβd told my husband everything. He didnβt say a word until I had finished, and then he held me. Neither of us said PND during that very long and emotional discussion, but we both knew it. From that moment, everything was only half as awful as it had been.
Over to the professionals
I went to the GP and she confirmed it was PND. I was really ill. The cruelty of this illness and the stigma around it had silenced me, consumed me, and robbed our baby of having a mother for the first eight months of her life. I was prescribed antidepressants and fast-tracked for therapy. I went from feeling invisible to being everyoneβs priority and we all had one goal β to get me better so I could finally learn to love my child.
Fortunately I found the strength to ask for help but it was torture getting to that point.
I have now been discharged from treatment but it will always be there under the surface. The difference is now I know it canβt beat me, because when my beautiful daughter now looks at me with her cheeky grin, my heart is finally starting to ache with affection and almost love, not pain because I canβt.
This time last year I was thinking of ways to give her away and kill myself. Today, I woke up and danced to βShake Senoraβ on the radio, I wrote an article, and later Iβll be βMummaβ and read βMr. Magnoliaβ again and again. And it will be real.
Weβre all in this together
If you suspect that a new mum is struggling with more than baby blues, ask them. PND is not dirty. If that means a few minutes of awkward silence as she finds the words, thatβs nothing compared to the months of silence she could have struggled through like I did.
And if youβre that new mum, dig deep and find the strength to tell someone. Itβs not your fault youβre ill, but you and only you are in control of what happens next.
I have discovered that motherhood is not easy, for anyone. What one mum may breeze through, another may literally be having the worst time of her life with. For me, I was dealt the dark hand of PND.β
I think youβll agree Katieβs story is a powerful one and Iβm so grateful she found the strength to speak out β I have no doubt her words willΒ help to others.
For more informationΒ and supportΒ on post natal depressionΒ here are someΒ useful links:
Mind: https://www.mind.org.uk/
The Pandas Foundation: https://www.pandasfoundation.org.uk/
PND&Me: https://www.pndandme.co.uk/
Do you have experience of PND? Did Katie’s story touch you as much as it did me?
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Oh I love this! It’s like reading my own journey after my 2nd child, so much hit the nail on the head.
I think it is so important to give Mum’s the space to say ‘help’. It’s not always a month or two in and then you’re set to go. It can be when baby is one year old, sometimes longer.
The stigma is so strong it’s daunting. It needs breaking. Very beautifully written by Katie.
Wow! This is a powerful read and I admire Katie for being so honest. I’ve suffered with depression and was very low after Josh was born but thankfully I saw the doctor quickly and managed it. There is such a stigma with PND and it must feel so isolating to feel things that are negative. Thanks for sharing this xx #MarvMondays
Wow, such a moving and powerful read. I never experienced severe PND but I did feel extremely lonely and isolated during the first few weeks of being a new mum. This is such an important post and PND is something that needs to be discussed more openly, to help those in need. Thank you to Katie for writing her story and for allowing it to be shared. #MarvMondays
Wow, what a powerful story! I so feel for her, I really do. I found and still find motherhood really hard but the live you have for them really does keep you going. To have that blocked by this horrible illness must be so unbearable and I really feel for her for suffering as long as she did before finding help. PND needs more awareness raised and it’s stigma squashed. My goodness, we go through a lot as women don’t we?! Xo #pinkylinky
Hi ladies. Thank you so much for taking the time to read this and for leaving a comment. When I saw this post had been published I actually felt sick and my heart felt like it had jumped into my throat! I had to take a deep breath before scrolling down to see what people had to say. But reading your comments was massively comforting. Thank you so much for being honest in how you felt too. In a very odd way I’m pleased PND got me, not for ruining those early motherhood months, or for the stress and anxiety issues it has left me with, but for making me really appreciate the good days. PND or not, as parents we all have good and bad days, and the definition of those is different for us all. But we need those bad days to ensure we never take the good days for granted. Today, for me, is a ‘thank God it’s out there, now get me a large glass of wine’ day! xxx
Bottoms up to you Katie it was very brave for you to put it out there for all to see. It was hard for me to admit I just didn’t want my daughter after she was born. He was constantly receiving phone calls from Mr when he went back to work. I couldn’t cope. He had to come home. His paternity leave wound up being about 3 months long – instead of the permitted 2 weeks. In hind sight we’re lucky he wasn’t put on disciplinary – or worse.
You are a credit to yourself. Stay strong Mamma! X
Wow! Katie, you are so brave for sharing this story. Well done. I hope sharing this will help others. I can’t even imagine how this feels for you. I’m glad you managed to get help and are starting to feel better. Stay positive xx #bigpinklink
Oh my goodness, what a brave and wonderful story. I’m so glad Katie chose to share this. Ugh stigma and expectation are so damaging…everyone should read this. #bigpinklink
This is an absolutely brilliant post! Bravo Katie for speaking out and I agree with you Natalie she should definitely blog! #bigpinklink
What a very brave lady sharing her story. I think it’s so important to speak out about PND so that other mums going through it know they’re not alone. I’m glad Katie finally spoke out and got the help she neededicated of start her recovery.
(Unhinged mummy stopping by from #marvmondays)
What an honest post and how brave of Katie for sharing. PND seems to be getting more awareness and there seems more support rather than mums just being fobbed off and told to get a grip. Thanks for joining us for #marvmondays
What a read; how frightening for her! I’m glad Katie is doing so much better now and I hope in time she can lose that fog completely and have that bond with her daughter. Thanks for sharing xx #mravmondays
Wow, that’s a powerful story to tell, and a massive well done to Kate for sharif it as I am sure this is going to help so many mum’s & dads. I have suffered with depression, actually before kids, but can rally empathise with Katie about putting on a front, everything is fine if you keep telling people, Thank you for sharing. #MarvMondays
What an amazing story. I’m so glad Katie reached out to share her story. I haven’t had any personal experience of PND, but this was such a powerful story, I felt so sad for Katie and how she felt. I’m so glad that she got help and is brave enough to try and help others who might be feeling the same #MarvMondays
This was a really powerful read, and I’m glad that Katie wrote her story so that others can feel they are not alone. I didn’t suffer from PND myself, but early motherhood was certainly a discombobulating experience and like many others, I didn’t fall in love with my baby right away. It did come though, with time. #bigpinklink
It takes a lot of guts to realise you’ve got to the lowest point and need help, and I admire Katie in so many ways for everything she’s been through and by sharing her story to help others. It’s such a taboo isn’t it – to say you don’t love your child. No wonder people hide it from the rest of the world. But posts like this shed light on PND and the more we are ALL aware, for ourselves and for others, the more likely we are to get the help needed. Thanks for sharing this powerful and emotional story! #bigpinklink
This is something I have been fortunate not to struggle with, and because of that i do not understand it…Reading this post has given me such a clearer view of what PND does to a mother. The stripped media shout outs do nothing to help moms understand what PND moms are going through, but this one has opened my eyes…this is importnat for everyone to read
Oh wow, what a powerful read. I’m so glad she reached out and got help. A woman recently jumped from the motorway bridge near our house and sadly died. I can’t stop thinking about how desperate she must have been to have done that. Speaking out can literally save a life as can providing support and listening. I’m going to be sharing Katie’s story, such a brave lady for being so honest. This is what other mums need to read x #TwinklyTuesday
This post is so powerful and honest and I’m sure many mums who have suffered with pnd will find comfort reading the words of someone who has been through it too. Katie you are very brave for sharing your story and I hope things are getting better for you now xx #twinklyTuesday
Oh Katie; cuddles and kudos to you! We are bombarded with this perfect reality, when in fact, that can be miles away from what we’re really feeling. Your daughter will one day admire your strength and determination to seek help and be a fuller person. xx #bigpinklink
or…#TwinklyTuesday even…eeeeeks….sorry!
God PND is a massive wanker. Well done Katie on being so honest and brave. I’m sure you have helped many other mums (and dads) understand why they are feeling the way they are. Lots of love for the future. #TwinklyTuesdays
I suffered with PND and dark thoughts for a while after having my second child. I loved her endlessly but had awful, graphic thoughts about what could happen say should we fall down the stairs or worse. I got some help too and thankfully things are fine now x
Excellent post. Such a difficult topic to speak about but Katie really did it justice. Thank you for speaking out. #marvmondays
What an honest and inspiring post. Thank you so much for sharing this. I suffered with PND with each of my five children and at one point it got so bad that I was hospitalised, I look back now and genuinely have no idea how I am still here, but thanks to my friends and family I am, and thank god for that. I hope that reading this helps someone to feel a little less lonely, or to get the help they need. #TwinklyTuesday
A powerful story – thank you for sharing it with us all #twinklytuesday
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A wonderfully brave mum to write such a difficult post. Sharing our stories isn’t easy but in doing so, we can help others experiencing the same problems. Well done Katie xx
What a journey you’ve had! You are so wonderful for speaking out about your difficult time and I’m so pleased you managed to get the support you needed. It’s so important to share stories like this so that others don’t feel quite so alone. #MarvMondays
What a brave and honest story. Not loving your child is one of the hardest things that anyone can admit to – even when it is caused by a horrible illness like PND. It took me a long time to love my second child due to suffering with PND and I felt so alone because, like Katie, I felt I was living a double-life and pretending everything was perfect. I wish I’d read something like this back then – I would have felt a lot less alone and might have sought help sooner than I did. Thank you for sharing this – it’s stories like this one that help break down the stigma surrounding PND and help other mums to realise that they are not alone; that they are not bad mums for feeling the way they do and that there is help out there. So glad to hear that Katie is now feeling affection for her daughter x #twinklytuesday
Thank for such an honest post. Hearing women’s stories of PND and PNAreally helps get the message out about seeking help and takes away the stigma. #marvmondays
What an amazing post. It sounds as though she may have been verging on postnatal psychosis with the thoughts. (Not an expert) I’m so glad things are looking up. It is possible to recover from. Thank you so much for being a part of the #bigpinklink it’s great to have you with us!
It took me around 2 to 3 years before I had a connection with my children. I didn’t love them, there was no “immediate sense of overwhelming love” like I’d been promised. I felt the need to lie to everyone because I was called heartless and cold. I said this to every medical professional that came to visit my wife after the birth of both our children and I always got the same response: It will come, don’t worry about it. My wife (who suffered from post natal depression) she was given access to an overwhelming amount of support that even we recognised as rare. It’s only with hindsight that I believe I suffered from depression, and in a bizarre way helping support my wife through hers (combined with support that I had received after reaching out to the blogging community) I managed to overcome it and now have as strong a bond with them as I could imagine.
Katie I am in awe of your strength. When I was expecting both of my children I was terrified of developing PND due to a history of mental health issues in my family. It is such an unbelievably cruel affliction and I applaud you for sharing your story and raising awareness. #TwinklyTuesday
What an incredibly touching post. I’m so glad things are looking up for her – I haven’t had PND but when I adopted my kids I think, looking back, I had post adoption depression and it really was a dark place to be – so all credit to Katie and I hope that things keep moving up for her. #marvmondays
Very moving. I’m actually crying right now, like real ugly crying (it’s been a long day!) So brave to share this story, I’m sure it will hit a nerve with a lot of mums, in a positive and inspiring way #twinklytuesday
An amazing post and thank you Katie so much for sharing her experience with us. It can be incredibly hard to admit especially if you have been denying for a while. PND has so much stigma surrounding it which needs to be gone because it makes it really hard for people to want to seek help for the fear that they’ll be judged. Keep going Katie, you are an incredible mum. #TwinklyTuesday
What an amazing, brave post to write. We NEED articles like this on the internet because that is where a lot of mums turn in their darkest moments. I know I did. Just knowing that someone else has been there too can make it seem so much less daunting – it gives you hope that the problem can be conquered #TwinklyTuesday
What an amazing and inspiring post. I love seeing posts like this, I feel like it helps other mothers who may be feeling the same open up and seek help from medical professionals. Amy x #TwinklyTuesday
Mental illness robs us and our loved ones of so much! We need to seek help and we need to break stigmas, sharing stories like this make a huge difference to so many lives, well done xx #MarvellousMondays
This is a bravely and somehow beautifully written post, that had me almost in tears. I am sure that many reading this will relate and want to wrap their arms around Katie and hug her for sharing it. Alison x #coolmumclub
Reading this wiping away the tears that have been dripping off my chin.
I can’t imagine how hard life must have been for you, trying to keep up the facade of normality whilst suffering so badly. This is the most powerful and real post I have ever read about any form of mental illness and has shown it in a light that helps all of us understand it a little better.
I wish you, your daughter and your family every bit of love and happiness for your future.
Natalie, you were absolutely right to share this.
Xxx
I hope lots and lots of moms see this post as I am sure it can help those who suffer with the sam eillness and don’t even know it. I wish and send you, your daughter and your husband lots of love and all the best wishes! Thank you for sharing with all of us!
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Crying over here. There is not a single part of me that judges this brave mum. On the contrary, I feel desperately sad for the struggle she has been through and the fear she has experienced. I’m so glad that she finally felt ready and able to seek help and that she is now beginning to bond with her daughter. I hope she continues to recover and gradually finds her way through motherhood. It’s hard for anyone to adjust to, so I can’t imagine how much harder it must be with PND dogging your every thought.
This is so powerful and brilliantly honest. I know that I’ve always been worried about anybody thinking I have PND, especially doctors and midwifes, because I would be embarrassed which is totally the wrong way of thinking and something this post really portrays. We should never be embarrassed or scared to ask for help nd we all need to work to change the stigma π #MarvMondays
What a powerful story. I struggled like many new mums after giving birth, but not to this extent. I wish more people would share their stories so other women wouldn’t be afraid to get the help that they need. #ablogginggoodtime
This is such an emotional and moving read. I think, like many people posting here, there is certainly a need for more people to be open and honest about PND and to ensure parents get the right support – this is a really important issue.
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I really enjoyed reading this (not that I enjoyed the struggle you’ve had) but it’s nice to read an honest account of what you can feel. Really good post raising awareness and full of advice. Wishing you well wishes and thanking you for sharing your story! #coolmumclub
Thanks you Natalie for sharing via #coolmumclub
Hi Katie – what in incredibly brave and moving post that had me in tears. Wouldn’t it be great if all expectant mothers were given the understanding that its not all plain sailing by a very long way. I think I had PND but Pre natal rather than Post and was actually dreading the arrival in some ways. Thought I wouldn’t cope. A great friend suffered with what you described and its taken years of therapy and support for her to relate to and love her daughter. I admire your honest and courage and wish you strength and happiness. #TheList
Wow. Such honesty. I think these are important stories, so people understand when to get help. (and how to help and what to look for) #KALCOLS
Thank you so much for giving Katie the platform to tell her story. It’s so important to spread the word as much as possible so that people can identify the possibility of PND in themselves and others, talk to someone and get help. Many women are never even told about PND at any stage before and after giving birth and it makes it harder for them to get help. It is so generous that Katie has shared her story to raise awareness and reduce the stigma, and I’m glad that she is feeling better gradually with treatment. Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next Sunday.
It is so eye opening – not only to read about one woman’s story, but the others who have commented about their own experiences as a result of Katie opening up. I think that we are so often fixated on the logistics of giving birth that our expectations about the actual motherhood part are all out of whack, leading to some pretty unrealistic expectations and reality can come as a bit of a shock. It’s good to talk about these issues so women don’t feel alone.
xAlice
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As a survivor of this darkness I applaud your bravery.
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Such a powerful and important post. the more people understand, the greater the hope that other mothers will not suffer alone. #KCACOLS
I’m glad you got the help you need. Mental health services are really stretch and so many people struggle to get therapy of any kind. Hopefully this will soon be a distant memory. #kcacols
Wow. Very powerful post. Very brave. I am so glad that this is out there and that mothers can get the help they need and know that they are not alone. #kcacols
This is such a powerful and important post, and I am so glad that Katie got the help she needed. I hope that with time, and with more people being open and honest like Katie there will be less of a stigma, and mothers will find it easier to seek help xx #TheList
This lady is incredibly brave and should be so proud of herself for speaking out x
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I cannot imagine how hard all of that must have been for her. I am glad she came through it all x
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Wow what a powerful read and what a strong strong woman she is. I am so glad she found the strength to recognise what was wrong and get help before something awful happened and I’m so happy that she is starting to enjoy motherhood. Thanks for sharing her story with #TwinklyTuesday
Such a powerful story and Katie is so brave to share this. I’m sure it welll help others x #KCACOLS
Again such a great post that will help many, popping back from #KCACOLS
What a powerful story and thank you for publishing it on you blog so that hopefully mums feeling the same will find it and know they are not alone! #KCACOLS
I can’t even imagine how it must have been to go through that alone. How scary it must have been for her. I’m relieved that when she finally reached out for help that she was given it. You hear so many terrible stories about people with mental health issues left waiting for treatment for ages. I wish Katie all the future and building that strong relationship with her daughter now she has a way of trying to manage her PND. #KCACOLS
really pleased you shared this story and cant imagine how difficult it must have been. it took me along time to adjust to being a mum that’s for sure. it wasnt insta-love for me and i struggled in the first few months. #KCACOLS
Incredible post, thank you for sharing your story. It’s easy to pretend everything is OK, especially when you spend so much time with new mum friends not people you know well. I hope this helps people talk more honestly about how they’re feeling. #kcacols
Oh my goodness – what an incredible post. The hardest thing to do was admit it but she did and just wow! I just want to give her a big hug. I am not sure what else to say.
Thanks for linking to #ablogginggoodtime
This is so brave – the ultimate taboo for a mother is to admit that she does not love her own child. I hope this helps other women who are struggling with PND. I think she is an incredible lady. #KCACOLS
Katie should be applauded for coming out of the shadows and describing her experience as honestly as she did. (I am also very proud of our blogging community for throwing our figurative arms around her without judgment as we should despite our own experience with depression.)
As for me, I had very little interest in being with my children at the beginning. Nurses had to coax me to hold my twins and feed them. It IS an incredibly isolating thing to feel like you are a monster for having those emotions.
I didn’t seek help (or confide in anyone at all) until months after giving birth when I cancelled at the last minute baby massage classes that I had been very keen to take while pregnant because I couldn’t stop sobbing.
My viewpoint is that “love” can be felt in so many ways. If your heart doesn’t swell with affection in response to your children, I do not personally feel that this means that you DON’T love your child. Love emerges in different ways and in different intensities. I could see how the thoughts “I don’t love my children” could occupy a mom’s mind constantly. My wish for Katie and other women suffering from PND is that they can begin to let go of some of that obsession enough to love THEMSELVES again.
Hats off to a VERY gutsy woman for sharing her story.
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Heartbreaking, but a great reminder that many go through this and maybe an inspiration to someone to get help #KCACOLS
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It is really great that Katie could share her story. Postnatal depression is such a huge issue and something that I would want no one to be ashamed of experiencing. It would be great if everyone could just get help without feeling guilt but both our society and the symptoms of pnd themselves make it very tough. Well done for sharing.
Well done for posting this and especially to the writer for this very brave post. I definitely had PND when I look back but just didn’t realise it at the time. Your hormones are all over the place, life has changed so much, so quickly, motherhood is nothing like you imagine and Gina ford is a liar!!! and for me I realised later it was the lack of structure, I had no idea how to fill my days so I started sleeping when baby did. Then I slept more and more and stopped planning things so I could sleep, I was just so tired and couldn’t face doing anything. I thought I must be ill so went to the dr for blood tests. She gave me a questionnaire on PND and all the blood tests came back fine. Slowly it dawned on me that I was depressed. Don’t be ashamed of the stigma, I think many mums can empathise and I salute you for your honesty. Best of luck with your journey xxx #coolmumclub
Very emotional. So very brave of Katie to share her story and say those words. I can’t even begin to imagine how hard this must feel. Glad to hear that she is getting better. Very very strong and brave π Thank you for sharing #KCACOLS
Wow this really was powerful. I was depressed for a long time after my 2nd was born, but never dared admit anything to anyone. Just like miscarriage it is something we need to talk about more. It takes a lot of courage to write something like this, thank you. And good luck xxx #KCACOLS
This is such a brave and powerful story about something that needs to be talked about more and de-stigmatized. Thank you for sharing your story, Katie.
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Such an important story to share. Thank you Katie, I’m sure you have helped many women who may be feeling the same. #PostsFromTheHeart
She’s so brave isn’t she x
This is so powerful and something that resonated with me hugely. I suffered from terrible, intrusive thoughts that left me broken, afraid and culminated in a breakdown 2 years ago. I know how this lady feels. Every word she said echoed in my brain. She’s so brave to talk about this. #fromtheheart
Yes it’s so good Katie spoke out – sorry to hear about your experience and hope you are ok now x
I was honestly not expecting this. I was honestly not expecting that she actually really didn’t love her daughter in the beginning, and was expecting some sort of twist—a play with words, perhaps. But as I read and realized how wrong I was, I was also moved by how much she had to endure in order to find that love. The rest of us take it for granted that we love our children from the moment that they are born, assuming that the month or two of depression that we have is the worst PND could throw at us. I never realized it could be this bad, and I say kudos to her. I am amazed at her resilience and strength. Thank you for sharing this beautiful, heartwarming post. π
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I know, it’s a powerful story isn’t it. And so important to speak about too x
What a powerful and honest post. We’ve all had the baby blues but there are those out there for which it is more than that and they need to be reached and reassured that they are not on their own and that they can get help and support. Thaks for sharing this story. #PostsFromTheHeart
This was so moving, the stigma around pnd needs to end #PostsFromTheHeart
It’s a very moving story isn’t it…
Wow, this is a true #PostFromTheHeart! Katie – well done for sharing your story, I wish I had read a similar one 7 years ago when I had my first born and felt nothing but shame and a complete failure for not being awesome from the start at something that seems to come so naturally to millions! It is through stories like yours that the stigma falls away and moms feel safe to get the help they need in whatever form and degree they need it in.
Yes I thought it was an appropriate post to share on the #postsfromtheheart linky, and the more people we can reach the better…
I have been there- it is an unspeakable pain. You are not alone.
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I hope things are better now x
This is an incredibly touching post. I am in awe of Katie’s honesty and so glad to hear that she had the courage to seek help before it was too late. #postsfromtheheart
I know – she’s very brave isn’t she x
I’m sure that post will help others.PND is a secret illness that affects all one way or another and most of the time we just think we are bad mothers and social services will be around to get the kids if we say whats in our heads.Thank you for sharing this on Katies behalf #postsfromtheheart
WOW This is one of the realest accounts of PND that I have read. I admire Katie for being so raw and honest. x #postsfromtheheart
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